30 Day Film Challenge – Day 14

The Film That No One Expected You To Like

My interests when it comes to movies are pretty obvious. I like good movies. I like bad movies. I just like movies. I seek some genres or certain directors out more than others. But generally, if you stick me front of a movie screen for a few hours, I’ll be content. One thing I love is going to some movies with no expectations at all, which brings me to this story.

When I was on spring break during my first year of college, I went to the movies with some friends. This was a movie they wanted to see and I just went to go.

Midway through my friend realized something was wrong with me and she asked me if I was okay. I was sitting there with my jaw-dropped, completely engrossed in what was on the screen. I was obviously overwhelmed. The movie was 300 and I was reveling in the fact that as a first-year at a women’s college, I had not seen that many men in seven months.

I don’t even remember what happened in 300. There were just these men wearing the most ridiculous, completely gratuitous outfits conceivable. It was surreal and it was weird and it was homoerotic. And then they all died. Actually, that is everything is what happened.

I haven’t seen 300 since and I have no desire to see it again, but for that those two hours, I was completely into this movie.

One Year Post-Grad (And What Happened In Between)

Exactly one year ago I graduated from Mount Holyoke College. My graduation was the culmination of a four-year long emotional roller coaster and the end of a significant stage in my life. Unlike many of my classmates, I didn’t have a next step in mind. I opted out of grad school or a program like Teach for America. I took a Lauren Conrad (a Hills-ian?) approach to life; I was excited by the fact that for the first time ever, I didn’t know where I was going to end up.

The fear of impending adulthood? Or just a look of someone who is overeducated and blissfully unaware of what will come next.

After a weekend filled with pomp and circumstance, some kooky traditions (especially to you outsiders who don’t get the women’s college thing), and not too much celebration (I’m still waiting for that congratulatory card, dear brother), I settled into my post-college life. My days became defined by a frantic job search and just keeping my fingers crossed. Thanks to a shitty economy and my general stubbornness, my job prospects greatly depended on good fortune.

I decided after my graduation that I should do something very selfish: absolutely nothing. I had spent 21 years doing exactly what I was supposed to do — participate in an obscene number of extracurriculars, do well in school, go to a good college, graduate with honors — all that crap. I needed and wanted a break. Knowing that the economy sucked aided my decision to take what I intended to be a three-month vacation before setting out into the “real world”.

In retrospect, this was such a dumb idea. I never quite found my footing and as my friends from school have slowly figured out their next step, I am still limping along. I’ve settled into a very normal pattern of not doing too much. I spend so much time with my retired father that I have acquired the habits of a 60-year-old man. I am fairly certain that my stress levels have never been this high before, even when I was writing a thesis.  And I developed some ridiculous coping methods in the form of the Kardashians, Degrassi, and my cat.

Nothing is stronger than the bond between a recent college graduate and her cat.

I wouldn’t change anything about this year. I needed to gain some footing and figure out exactly what I wanted, which at this time is still fairly undefined. But I’m getting there. That is all that matters. (I would insert Sara Bareilles’ song “Uncharted” here but Audrina Patridge’s reality show has effectively ruined it for me.)

And now, here is a list of (almost) everything I did in the year after my college graduation.

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Thesis Redux: A Blogging Project

What I looked like April 27, 2010

April 29 marks the one year anniversary of when I handed in my senior thesis at Mount Holyoke, ending a year-long research project on post-9/11 independent cinema. The entire thesis process was an emotionally, mentally, and even physically draining experience. I never wanted to hear the words “Neorealism,” “American Dream,” “immigrant,” or “identity” ever again.

Something has changed in the past few weeks. My post-college life hasn’t been exactly thrilling. As boredom continues to settle in, I find myself wanting to revisit my former academic life. I wasn’t entirely satisfied with the conclusions I reached and because of that I find that my thesis is on my mind more than ever. How can I improve on it now? I am going to take this stage of my life as opportunity to fix what I was never content with.

One thing I never did while writing my thesis was blog about it. I always intended to in hopes of getting feedback from others about the films and theoretical concepts I was exploring. So that is what I am going to do now — really dive into this project in a way I was not afforded to before. Maybe it will help me get some real satisfaction from the project.

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Five years ago I wrote a blog post about my acceptance in Mount Holyoke College. It was short, sweet, and idealistic. While I have been a student at MHC, I have posted random blog posts about Mountain Day, campus scenaries, and about my senior project. Four and a half years later, I have graduated from MHC, with BA in Film Studies. (Well, that was always the plan.) I’m not exactly sure what comes next, although I was naively sure of what I wanted to do when I was 17.

This day has been overwhelming and strange, to say the least.

Postcards, Postcards, Postcards

I collect postcards.

About two weeks ago now I put up an installation in the student art gallery at MHC. The installation, entitled Postcards, took my extensive collection of over 1,000 postcards and put them on display. Some were framed, others were not. Some were on mobiles; others were not. Some you could read a message; others you could not.

The idea behind the installation was to examine how we think about communication and how we remember our lives. Some postcards, for instance, were sent by my grandmother to my mother. These are special to me but to other people, their significance could be lost over time. Other postcards were sent between complete strangers. I found these postcards in an antique shop, which is the last place I would ever want my collection to end up.

Some pictures:

The installation also featured a video, Postcards. I am working on uploading to YouTube. But as it is nearly 20 minutes long I am going to have to edit it down. The video was also designed for the installation space (it is mostly audio that was overheard while someone perused the postcards). For the YouTube audience, the video will have to modified.

Now that I have revealed myself as a deltiologist (postcard collector) I’m going to blog about the various postcards that make their way into my collection. I receive about one to three postcards per week. So this is the beginning of an exciting project for me.